"Rest"

While pondering on my previous post and exposing my lack of spiritual presence, I happened to come across a good article online while seeking some inspiration. The article was about being "cluttered" and the Lord showing the author that a person can't eat at a table if it is cluttered. This article and a conversation with the Lord tonight revealed to me that I am just that. This is what is keeping me in the valley. I am living in my cluttered heart full of thoughts and ideas and events. The effort I do make in feeding my spirit cannot give me any response if my heart and head are already too full. The Lord told me tonight to "rest" and I knew exactly what he meant yet I looked it up in the dictionary anyway.

To be still and quiet in this world is great feat sometimes especially to a cluttered mind as mine so often gets. I pray tonight then after this conversation with my Lord and my insights gained therein that I will be still and quiet...trust and listen. That His words will be instilled in my heart throughout the rest of this evening. That quickly reading the Bible or other's inspirational blogs and daily devotionals are not always going to give me what I need to hear if I am not listening. But it is His word out of it all that impacted me the most tonight and it is His words that I long to continue to hear for the answers I am seeking and I will hear them but not a moment sooner than I am supposed to. This I know. And as He has reminded me as to why I go through these periods, well as you all know it is only to draw us nearer to Him. Yes. I shall rest now. No worry or doubt. Just be still and listen. Pray for me.

Seeking Myself Again

I find I often don't write when I am in the valley. My inspiration doesn't come. But I also find that during these times I am lacking in feeding the spirit and have gotten comfortable in my old habits. While I realize that not all my experiences in walking with God will be mountaintops, I do well to remind myself of the times they are and it is funny how all at once I am blown away with the grace, love, and blessings I have been given. Because I re-witness these things it is encouraging to me...to remind me that I am not of this world...that I am from His.

I wonder if I've let too many distractions take my focus away from His work and my commitment I desire to keep. I pray this is only a stage...a learning period...for my heart has changed, that I do not doubt. If it hadn't then I would not be bothering to writing this as we speak.

I've been thinking about writing of my experiences prior to my knowledge of the truth and my salvation since as far back as I could remember. I would have to do it in several installments but soing so while walking in the valley it would be good to write about them at the times I am needing quenched. So I'll have to take some time to do so, along with getting into God's word, and start my next climb to a new mountaintop!